PROSES

wuuiiih.....
akhirnya, allah membukakan pintu ampunan bwt gw.....
gw merasa allah masih memberi kesempatan gw buat ngerubah seluruh sikap gw ke semua orang....
gw merasa di beri petunjuk and arah menuju keselamatan yang hakiki...
gw merasa bersyukur banget coz allah udah mau ngapus dosa2 hambanya ini (gw)...
hiks..hiks ( ampe nangis )
gw udah nyadar....
walaupun belum 100% tapi dah 75% gitu..., namanya juga proses.
ma'lumlah gwkan masih teenager jadinya sikap pemberontakan gw masih sering muncul dalam keseharian gw (termasuk sikap pemberontakan gw terhadap si monyet gila), tapi gw masih nurut kog apa kata orang tua gw ama kakak2 gw yang cantik2 ma ganteng2...( hehehe).
gw juga inget and nyadar diri kalo gw bukanlah sekaya temen2 gw, gw juga nyadar diri kalo gw tidak sepinter temen2 gw (sebagian), gw juga nyadar se sadar2nya kalo gw lebih ganteng and multi talented daripada temen2 gw ( narsis abis).
hidup gw bakaikan ironoi dalam sineteron, dimana kadang2 gw berorientasi tentang hidup gw, temen2 jahat gw, kemudian menuai konflik yang berkepanjangan ampe klimax se-klimak2nya....
trus gw mencoba rekontruksi lagi hidup gw...... ampe sekarang.
gw mencoba rekontruksi lagi hidup gw dengan se baik2nya tapi masih ada para pengganjal dan penghalang yang selalu memberikan halangan dan rintangan dalam proses rekonstruksi hidup gw.
gw sampe parno (paranoid) kalo proses rekonstruksi hidup gw akan hancur berantakan and hilang......
tapi rasa parno itu sekarang mulai hilang dan ilang karena gw udah mulai dekat sama allah..
gw yakin and percaya kalo allah pasti akan ngelindungin gw sampai tujuan and cita2 hidup gw terlaksana and selamanya.....
AMIEEN...

SI MONYET GILA.... !!

UUh..., hari ni rasanya tu gw mangkel banget... !! gara2 tadi pagi gw debat abis2-an sama si moyet kecil, yang udah item, pendek, bau dan paling parahnya hidup lagi tuh monyet.. !! parah.. !! padahal gw-kan cuma mo refreshing diri gitu.. !! maklumlah anak muda lagi survival jati diri.. !! kaya' belum pernah muda aja tuh si monyet !! padahal dulunya dia kan juga pernah muda.. !! masak ngga' tahu sifat nak muda ??!! ckckck... apalagi rasa kepekanya dalam menyikapi suatu masalah tu kurang banget !! dia tu kalo dah adep2an ma gw bawaanya pengen nyari2 kesalahan yang aku perbuat, padahalkan gw-kan gak suka nyari masalah lagian juga gw tu anak yang baik(^^), apalagi gw tu alergi ama binatang apalagi sama monyet !! dan dia tu sering banget nyuriagain gw nglakuin kesalahan yang fatal (bagi si tuh MONYET) uuggh... SEBEL.. !! dia tu pengen supaya gw nurutin apa kemauannya dia (si monyet) !! tau sendiri dong, masa' manusia nurut ama monyet !! iih nggak banget kalee... !! katanya siih gw tu orang yang suka mbangkang, suka bohong, suka mbolos, suka nyari2 masalah ma dia, boleh siih dia berpikiran seperti ituu.. tapi permasalahanya dia nuduh tanpa bukti gw tanpa bukti otantik kalau gw tu tukang bohong alias pendusta.. !! "MIRIS ATI GW."..!! seumur-umur baru kali nie da orang yang tega nyakitin perasaan gw tanpa pandang bulu selain temn2 gw yang iri ma agw .. !! sakit ati gw.. !! tiap kali kalo dia ketemu ama gw dia selalu aja nanya dari mana ?? sama siapa ?? pas gw jawab, eeh malah dia balik njawab "bener nggak, saksinya siapa??"!! sontak ati gw panas !! ngeburning banget !! rasanya gw pengen si monyet item tu gw cincang2 ampe habis, terus gw bakar ape tak bersisa !! gw buang ke comberan belakang rumah gw !! soalnya dia tuh jengkelin banget super duper jengkelin bangett !! kalo aja tidak ada sekat di antara gw ama si monyet item itu !! udah gw abisin dia tak bersisa... !! tapi walaupun dia tu MONYET gw tetep harus baik2in dia demi orang tua gw dan keluarga gw dan demi cita2 gw... !! gw gak mau gara2 MONYET masa depan gw suram !! gw gak mau masa depan gw di pertaruhkan hanya gara2 si MONYET kuang ajar !! moag2 aja si MONYET tu bisa insyaf .... and mau ngertiin murid2nya dengan baik... !! bukannya malah overprotective sama muridnya !! NYET sorry yaw kalo gw suka nyinggung perasaan u.. !! bukan bermaksud gw nyinggung u tapi memang ada alasan yang mbikin gw harus jelek di mata u.. !! sorry nyet rasa sebel gw, rasa marah gw, rasa jengkel gw tidak akan pernah mengurangi rasa hormat gw sama u nyet, karena kau adalah pengajar hidup gw....... saat ini...>..< )

my SADNESS

ugh..., today i feel so tired to walking around in my life's way again, i don't know why.. ?? every body like judging me with bad image.
i wanna cry loudly... !! loudly.... !! i didn't do wrong doing, i just do what i want.. !!
and why, i always get the sadness in every time, everywhere, with everyone who knows me !! ?? its not fair ... !! why god give me problem likes that.. !!? it's not fair.. !!
sometimes, everybody call me with bad words !! baddest words in the world.... !! and no one wanna help me, when i get that situation... !! i just can cry life in the silent life.... !! quite.....
my life like a "parodi" sometimes happy and enjoy, and sometimes sad and cry.....!!
please...
help me .....
to quit that situation..
i can't push my emotions again.......
please...
bring me in your place..........
to be your friends forever.....
please.. ...

I am just a boy not "PRETTY" boy !!

Sometimes everyone including my friends always calls me "pretty" boy (?). that is one of a big problem in my life, beside other problem in my life's environment and in my school of course. i don't know, and why ? i confused, how themselves can calls me like that !!. uugh......!! >.< !!
in my daily activity i always keep my behavior to don't angry with my friends or someone calling me like that !! but, that is hurting me (>.<) !!
i must push my emotions to don't angry with anyone calling me like that. however, i must believe my self !! i must proud my self .. !! whatever do you say i don't care... !! ^^

INSPIRING

This is my pic, i don't know how to do it. i just take my self with my brother's camera in my secret room and action like model, it's so funny, but i am enjoy to do it. however, i must use my talent to showing my self in the world, i wannabe the success people in the world like Bill Gates and Abu Rizal Bakrie in my country, Indonesia.
My inspiration is my parents and my family, because without themself in my life, i can't exploring me self, i can't see the world, i can't see the colour of the world, i can't pray, i can't feel happiness and sadness, i can't touch the air in my home, i can't breath everytime. Because my family i can do what i want.
one day in my life, i wannabe a proud people, like proud with my family, proud with success career, proud with my religion, proud with my life, proud with my doing. i know this is dificult to get what i want, but i must be hardly to get my hope and my best future. i must run with my foot i must cry, i must fly with my wings, i must proud with my self, i must pray to Allah the Almighty.
so, if you wannabe someone inspiring you, you must be hard to get what do you want. sorry if my english bad..^^

INTRODUCING my self

hi...., my name is Airial, Airial is not my true name, but Airial is my nick name. i was born in Daerah Istimewa Yogyakarta, 09 march 1991, Indonesia. with javanese blood from my parents and grown up in Bantul, and lived there. i like painting, reading, writing daily activity, browsing, modelling, singing and the other interesting activity. and i am studiying in one of Islamic Boarding School in Yogyakarta, Indonesia. i like arts and social knowledge subject in my school. i really interested for help people and entertain them. a don't know why i really interested to do that. but over all i enjoy to do that. "friendship is someone who knows the song in your heart and can sings it back to you when you have forgotten the words" that is my motto. and now i am ready to get the world.